2011-08-31

It Ain't Pretty

Things are not going brilliantly on the pump.

So far, the major problems have nothing to do with the fact that I am attached to a medical device twenty-four hours per day. The major problem is that my blood sugar is really high all the time and I cannot seem to bring it down, no matter what I try.

The one reprieve I have in the course of my day is the minuscule period between finishing my evening workout and eating my dinner. Then and only then I get to experience normal blood glucose levels. Sometimes I even go low. Ordinarily, I greatly dislike going low, but it is such a welcome change from the constant high blood glucose I have been experiencing for the last month that it feels like cool water washing over my body.

This has got to stop. It absolutely must stop. It must.

From today, I take a good long look at my lifestyle and eliminate every superfluous carbohydrate I can. I am going to massively increase my vegetable intake, severely limit my intake of even complex carbohydrates like whole grains, go to bed on time, wake up on time, workout twice a day, re-commit to a vigorous cardiovascular regimen, and reduce my intake of caffeine.

I have to do this or I am going to start killing myself. I am a good diabetic. That I feel like I'm losing control of my blood sugar is frustrating, unsettling, alarming, disappointing, and all those other kinds of words.

All I can do is make an effort to control those factors over which I have control, and trust my body to respond. Wish me luck. I feel like crap today.